I know you're an emotional girl.

[erika]

FAQ:

• Yes, all of my entry titles come from the current song.
• Username comes from a quote from Life, the Universe, and Everything by Douglas Adams.
  

  "The point is, you see," said Ford, "that there is no point in driving yourself mad trying to stop yourself going mad. You might just as well give in and save your sanity for later."



My references:
silent_lorelei: Erika, you are the queen of smooth.

altoidsaddict: [Erika] has uncommonly good sense, like the time she decided to trade Midwestern tornadoes and floods for earthquakes and Gov. Schwarzenegger. I'm gonna have to go to grad school there just to get a cup of coffee with her, and of course this is one of the more compelling reasons to pull up stakes - because I hear rumors that her intelligence is contagious.



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Here are some quotes I really like. You decide if that says anything about me!

I might repeat to myself slowly and soothingly, a list of quotations beautiful from minds profound -- if I can remember any of the damn things. ~ Dorothy Parker

Do I contradict myself? Very well, then I contradict myself, I am large, I contain multitudes.
~~ Walt Whitman

"I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanity to anyone, but they've always worked for me." ~~ Hunter S. Thompson

I cannot write entirely without an audience, but do not, at all, mind writing only for you. ~~ Sigmund Freud

I cannot and do not live in the world of discretion, not as a writer, anyway. I would prefer to, I assure you -- it would make life easier. But discretion is, unfortunately, not for novelists. ~~ Philip Roth.

When writing a novel that's pretty much entirely what life turns into: "House burned down. Car stolen. Cat exploded. Did 1500 easy words, so all in all it was a pretty good day." "Got call this morning to say I'd got Nobel Prize for literature. Wrote less than 300 words (285) probably unusable, so lousy day." ~~ Neil Gaiman



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Long ass description of who I am:

I am unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often self-centered but obsessively helpful, bad with boundaries, of noble intent, less spontaneous than I want to be, a difficult and worthwhile partner, obsessively Scorpio, half Venezuelan, not always liked but often admired, respected, a ingenious strategist, a novice tactician, a quirkyalone, passionate, tremendously loyal to those I respect.

I have broad horizons, unexpected reactions, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, very little self respect but the ability to be supremely egotistical, submitted myself to The Mirror Project, so many naked photos of myself, intense emotions, amazing amounts of useless knowledge, good spelling & grammatical $|<!||z, a working fluency in Spanish and l33tsp3@k.

I believe music is a lifebeat & a pulse for the best of us, strawberries are a seriously sexy fruit, Buddhism is the world's first self-help book, in myself.

I read whenever I get a chance, 500 plus words a minute, the room (no tea no shade).

I do cry often, love without limits, post entries whenever I feel like it, care more than you may think, post sexually explicit material, protect my privacy (need-to-know basis, baby), judge people (by how they choose to live their life and what that says about their values).

I only need therapy when I'm breathing, eat meat when it tastes good, act polite when I'm around your parents, swear when I don't give a fuck.

I think other people perceive me as anal, stubborn, intelligent, egotistical, occasionally idealistic but generally pessimistic, analytic, bitchy, creative, open-minded, funny / witty, a control freak, insecure, depressed.

I used to, and I wish I still did play the 'cello, play the bassoon. love myself, not scream at everyone when I got upset, have the ability to confront someone without crying.

I do not compromise, suffer fools gladly, change easily, take myself seriously most of the time, endorse George W. Bush or Donald Trump, steal covers, post entries initially to private, judge other people based on an -ism (as Ferris would say), believe in the Abrahamic god, agree with legislation for victim less crimes.

I fear being alone for the rest of my life, my loved ones dying, ignorance overtaking the world, being in a car accident, becoming mentally and / or physically disabled, the power that some idiot gave to George W. Bush being given to Donald Trump, Roe vs Wade being overturned, losing my friends, plane crashes.

I hope for world peace, a billion dollars, a happy & productive life being near the ones I love, people to wake up and realize that SUVs really do suck.

I take my glasses off every night before I go to bed, classes on meditation and yoga and non-violent communication, everything both more and less seriously than it appears, a varying list of medications, shit from no one. everything personally, whatever I want whenever I want it,

I reserve the right to talk about what I want without apologizing, contradict myself, post poetry of negligible artistic value, force you to judge me on my own merits and not on your stupid preconceptions, over-react even though I know I'm over-reacting, move to Venezuela, be completely inexplicable and utterly spellbinding.

[edited 4/28/2016, a surprisingly good personality summary even after all these years]