'cause i can't take it anymore

[erika]

It seems like every time I turn around, I'm fucking up another relationship. I think my friends are getting tired of it. I know I'm getting tired of it.

This latest fuckup comes only 2 1/2 months after we started dating, for christ's sake, and less than 2 weeks before he was supposed to visit. (LDRs—jesus fuck, why do I always get into LDRs?) He had been putting everything in his life ahead of me: sports, spending large quantities of time with family he claimed to loathe, oversleeping, and blah blah blah.

Blah blah blah he didn't deserve you he didn't validate you he didn't blah blah blah. No one ever fucking did, except Chance, and where did that get me, huh? Breaking up with him because I was bored, that's where.

Seriously, I'm tired of this shit. Where do I sign up for an entirely new, not-fucked-up personality & brain?

Comments

[chiller]

He had been putting everything in his life ahead of me: sports, spending large quantities of time with family he claimed to loathe, oversleeping, and blah blah blah.

I gotta say, it sounds more like a close escape. I'd be more worried about your personality and brain if you DID end up with someone who treated you like this.

[erika]

A hit, sir, a palpable hit.