you got me going, you're oh so charming, but i can't do it

[erika]

So my new therapist said something interesting.

He said I was worried about killing myself. And I am, and I didn't even realize it. I can't stop that part of my brain that thinks it's a good idea.

I stay away from anything that might make me sad— even falling in love.

Comments

[rydra_wong]

That sounds like a good insight to have, even if it's a really fucking difficult thing to have to work with.

I have nothing useful to contribute, but here is a magnificent ASL rendition of "Womanizer" for you:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iUOXSNh9mzk

[erika]

Wow. I normally can't stand Youtube (short attention span + video = me tuning out) but that was truly magnificent.

[rydra_wong]

Ain't it awesome? It makes me have all sorts of thinky thoughts about gender and performance and the way he's referencing the original video and positioning himself as both subject and object of the song.

Also: hot.

[panda]

1. i love you

2. come onliiiiine i miss my bff :(

[panda]

Thanks for the link that was amazing.

Also yes to your thinky thoughts.

[alwayswondered]

I hope your new therapist is helpful. <3

[erika]

Thanks! I plan to write more about our first appt soonish.