but i'll sit real still, if you don't tell
Wednesday, November 14th, 2012 09:02 amOh, hey, so I realized the other day that I have more squicks than I thought, thanks to an awesome conversation with
treeperson where we bonded over horrible movies.
So I'm going to post a general disclaimer about: what triggers me, what squicks me and what I have a 'phobia' of, since people on dw (yay!) are so generally awesome about wondering about this.
I put phobia in quotes because I have no actual diagnosed phobias aside from um, agoraphobia (it's a long story), so this is really discussing the watered-down idea of 'phobia' as "something you can't stand to hear discussed", not "something you can't stand to the point of avoiding any situation which might include the phobia" which is the more clinical description, I think——except for agoraphobia which I mention briefly.
(People on lj, I still love you, don't worry, you're all awesome, and I'm going to keep crossposting until either all of you move to DW [not holding my breath!] or LJ shuts down, BUT I'm not really adding anyone on LJ anymore so ... everyone who still reads this journal over there has known me basically for years at this point and I doubt anyone reading this via LJ will be surprised by anything I say here.)
That having been said:
This entry contains general descriptions of material that is triggering or squicky or intensely-bad-reaction-making to me personally.
If things bother you that don't bother me, that doesn't mean I'm going to stop warning for them. My warning policy remains the same. (Link goes to a poll & entry posted on dreamwidth which wasn't crossposted to LJ because I no longer have a paid account there.)
I also want to say that in this entry, I'll be talking about my personal reactions to triggering or squicky material. That doesn't mean that if I say "I have a back button and I should've used it" that I think that's what you should do. NO. I am not saying that at all. It is not a judgment of you if you have major reactions to triggers or squicks that you can't control. That's why I warn in the first place.
I care about my readers and consider a great many of them personal friends. Yes, of course I want my friends' support, but I don't want them undergoing mental anguish if this is a subject that causes them such and they're not in a place where they can handle that. Clear? I really do hope so, 'cause this is so sensitive for many people for good reasons.
I guess the good news is nothing really triggers me. ( Text underneath talks about sexual, physical, or mental/emotional assault, including general descripts of stuff in my past, and description of my volunteer work with survivors of sexual assault. )
Basically, what this means is I effectively don't trigger—I suppose if someone just randomly started graphically describing something problematic with NO lead in, I might, but who even does that? Certainly not anyone I've ever run into on DW or LJ.
Um, I'm having a hard time warning for this stuff because it's all squicking me out, so if you can't stand solid bodily waste (ugh), or sounds/smells coming from the butt or sounds from the vagina (particularly MINE, AJSDLK;FJASKLDFJ;) or embarrassment (JESUS CHRIST NO)——— GO AWAY, PLEASE, SAVE YOURSELF, I'M MAKING MYSELF WRITE THIS BUT YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ IT.
In the discussion below, I also mention but do not discuss vomit as a reaction to my squicks; it doesn't happen to be one of them.
I also mention my agoraphobia, but that's not triggered by anyone else talking about it, so... I can talk about it freely, I just can't physically BE in a place where that is a concern.
There's also talk of anal sex and a lot of keyboard mashing when words fail me. Whee!
Alright, so ( my squicks & phobias are: )
oh my god I am never talking about any of this again
unless you want to comment, in which case, FEEL FREE, just ... you know. No details. Plz.
So I'm going to post a general disclaimer about: what triggers me, what squicks me and what I have a 'phobia' of, since people on dw (yay!) are so generally awesome about wondering about this.
I put phobia in quotes because I have no actual diagnosed phobias aside from um, agoraphobia (it's a long story), so this is really discussing the watered-down idea of 'phobia' as "something you can't stand to hear discussed", not "something you can't stand to the point of avoiding any situation which might include the phobia" which is the more clinical description, I think——except for agoraphobia which I mention briefly.
(People on lj, I still love you, don't worry, you're all awesome, and I'm going to keep crossposting until either all of you move to DW [not holding my breath!] or LJ shuts down, BUT I'm not really adding anyone on LJ anymore so ... everyone who still reads this journal over there has known me basically for years at this point and I doubt anyone reading this via LJ will be surprised by anything I say here.)
That having been said:
This entry contains general descriptions of material that is triggering or squicky or intensely-bad-reaction-making to me personally.
If things bother you that don't bother me, that doesn't mean I'm going to stop warning for them. My warning policy remains the same. (Link goes to a poll & entry posted on dreamwidth which wasn't crossposted to LJ because I no longer have a paid account there.)
I also want to say that in this entry, I'll be talking about my personal reactions to triggering or squicky material. That doesn't mean that if I say "I have a back button and I should've used it" that I think that's what you should do. NO. I am not saying that at all. It is not a judgment of you if you have major reactions to triggers or squicks that you can't control. That's why I warn in the first place.
I care about my readers and consider a great many of them personal friends. Yes, of course I want my friends' support, but I don't want them undergoing mental anguish if this is a subject that causes them such and they're not in a place where they can handle that. Clear? I really do hope so, 'cause this is so sensitive for many people for good reasons.
I guess the good news is nothing really triggers me. ( Text underneath talks about sexual, physical, or mental/emotional assault, including general descripts of stuff in my past, and description of my volunteer work with survivors of sexual assault. )
Basically, what this means is I effectively don't trigger—I suppose if someone just randomly started graphically describing something problematic with NO lead in, I might, but who even does that? Certainly not anyone I've ever run into on DW or LJ.
Um, I'm having a hard time warning for this stuff because it's all squicking me out, so if you can't stand solid bodily waste (ugh), or sounds/smells coming from the butt or sounds from the vagina (particularly MINE, AJSDLK;FJASKLDFJ;) or embarrassment (JESUS CHRIST NO)——— GO AWAY, PLEASE, SAVE YOURSELF, I'M MAKING MYSELF WRITE THIS BUT YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ IT.
In the discussion below, I also mention but do not discuss vomit as a reaction to my squicks; it doesn't happen to be one of them.
I also mention my agoraphobia, but that's not triggered by anyone else talking about it, so... I can talk about it freely, I just can't physically BE in a place where that is a concern.
There's also talk of anal sex and a lot of keyboard mashing when words fail me. Whee!
Alright, so ( my squicks & phobias are: )
oh my god I am never talking about any of this again
unless you want to comment, in which case, FEEL FREE, just ... you know. No details. Plz.