My mind is too strong to carry on
Monday, June 2nd, 2008 07:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
erikaFor some reason I don't have the words to say much of anything these days.
It's not much of a comfort to think I've been worse.
I wish I weren't like this.
I lie to teachers & to my friends. What's there left to talk about, when I already know how it ends?
What chokes my throat, and stops my breath? I hate this mess and I don't understand why I can't just do things. What stops me? What?
I was reading a book yesterday and I went to read it before bed and I couldn't find it; looked all over the house and everywhere, still couldn't find the damn thing. Not at all. And I haven't found it today either. It's like it just disappeared.
It's not much of a comfort to think I've been worse.
I wish I weren't like this.
I lie to teachers & to my friends. What's there left to talk about, when I already know how it ends?
What chokes my throat, and stops my breath? I hate this mess and I don't understand why I can't just do things. What stops me? What?
I was reading a book yesterday and I went to read it before bed and I couldn't find it; looked all over the house and everywhere, still couldn't find the damn thing. Not at all. And I haven't found it today either. It's like it just disappeared.
