got us a battle
Sunday, May 16th, 2010 11:02 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
erikaWide awake at 6AM. Unfortunately no one else is. Except my dad, amusingly enough—— eh.
So my big frightening thing is that I may actually get in to see a PCP for the first time in years (my MI has been treated by a great team who are funded through the state, but physical health isn't funded through that program) and I have all these things I want them to do (thryoid panel, blood sugar panel, adrenal function tests), and I'm basically just worried that I'm going to be painted as looking for some physical cause for my MI (which my psychiatrist and second-opinion psychiatrist think is more than likely) when really I'm just crazy.
And you know, if I'm crazy and it has nothing to do with my thyroid or my adrenals, fine. But I have practically every sign of hypothyroidism that there is, and I'm really tired of being told that I don't actually have hypothyroidism based on some lab tests for which I meet the standards or not. I have EVERY SYMPTOM but if my numbers are just a little too low to meet the clinical standard, welp, nope, no drug which could actually help you for you.
Basically I just want a doctor who will actually listen to me, and I know that seems to be impossible.
Going to see Alena today. We plan to go watch Iron Man and then go out for lunch.
So my big frightening thing is that I may actually get in to see a PCP for the first time in years (my MI has been treated by a great team who are funded through the state, but physical health isn't funded through that program) and I have all these things I want them to do (thryoid panel, blood sugar panel, adrenal function tests), and I'm basically just worried that I'm going to be painted as looking for some physical cause for my MI (which my psychiatrist and second-opinion psychiatrist think is more than likely) when really I'm just crazy.
And you know, if I'm crazy and it has nothing to do with my thyroid or my adrenals, fine. But I have practically every sign of hypothyroidism that there is, and I'm really tired of being told that I don't actually have hypothyroidism based on some lab tests for which I meet the standards or not. I have EVERY SYMPTOM but if my numbers are just a little too low to meet the clinical standard, welp, nope, no drug which could actually help you for you.
Basically I just want a doctor who will actually listen to me, and I know that seems to be impossible.
Going to see Alena today. We plan to go watch Iron Man and then go out for lunch.
