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erikaIt's four o'clock in the morning. Again. And I am awake, again. Fuck life.
I'm also angry at a guy who, I have realized, used me. I feel violated. I also feel very conflicted about cutting off contact with this person vs. confronting them vs. letting it go. (Note: no one who could conceivably be reading this is the guy in question, so worry not.)
Erika—not so good with the boundaries. Probably something I should be working on in therapy. (Mental note.)
Speaking of mental health: For therapy, the state downgraded us to 2x monthly, which is also really annoying the shit out of me. My SCL worker is still coming once a week, and I'm seeing my psychiatrist once a monthish. I plan to call my lawyers later today to see what's up with my appeal, and I think that about covers that.
Here's my current med rundown: (qd = every day, tid = three times a day, bid = twice a day, prn = as needed)
Abilify 5mg qd. Adderall t.i.d. (30 mg, 15 mg x2) Buproprion SR, 100mg b.i.d. Pristiq 50mg qd. clonazepam 1mg prn. Mirena.
Daily supplements are: 750mg of GABA, 2g of fish oil (900mg of DHA), a B vitamin complex, 250mg of Magnesium, and 500mg of L-Tyrosine, all qd (when I remember), and a non-iron containing multivitamin.
On days when I wake up properly at 8 or 9AM, I get 1 1/2 hours of light via my lightlamp.
I probably need to up the fish oil but they're giant pills and only two fit in my pillbox at a time.
I'm also angry at a guy who, I have realized, used me. I feel violated. I also feel very conflicted about cutting off contact with this person vs. confronting them vs. letting it go. (Note: no one who could conceivably be reading this is the guy in question, so worry not.)
Erika—not so good with the boundaries. Probably something I should be working on in therapy. (Mental note.)
Speaking of mental health: For therapy, the state downgraded us to 2x monthly, which is also really annoying the shit out of me. My SCL worker is still coming once a week, and I'm seeing my psychiatrist once a monthish. I plan to call my lawyers later today to see what's up with my appeal, and I think that about covers that.
Here's my current med rundown: (qd = every day, tid = three times a day, bid = twice a day, prn = as needed)
Abilify 5mg qd. Adderall t.i.d. (30 mg, 15 mg x2) Buproprion SR, 100mg b.i.d. Pristiq 50mg qd. clonazepam 1mg prn. Mirena.
Daily supplements are: 750mg of GABA, 2g of fish oil (900mg of DHA), a B vitamin complex, 250mg of Magnesium, and 500mg of L-Tyrosine, all qd (when I remember), and a non-iron containing multivitamin.
On days when I wake up properly at 8 or 9AM, I get 1 1/2 hours of light via my lightlamp.
I probably need to up the fish oil but they're giant pills and only two fit in my pillbox at a time.
