Last night I lived more than one thousand lives—(not one of them survived.)

[erika]

This is for someone who should know who he is—especially since I'm going to link him to this post once it goes live.

(Oh, and anyone else would know, too, if you checked the tags.)

Download all 25 songs here.

This is not precisely a list of love songs, though it is a very long list of songs—this is a list of our songs.

The Ark - Calleth You, Cometh I (us both)

And I know we became restrained everytime we were among friends
And I know how it was last time and how bitterly it always ends
And I know we were both too young to know what real love would be like
And i know our communication didn't always work out right

I know all that so well but I also do know this
calleth you, cometh I
And that's just how it is and how it is always been
It's where my reason stops and
something else comes in
I know it doesn't make sense but still...
calleth you, cometh I

Meat Loaf - Everything Louder than Everything Else (us both, when we first met, and maybe now)

But I'm in it till it's over and I just can't stop
If you wanna get it done, you gotta do it yourself

And I like my music like I like my life

Everything louder than everything else,
everything louder than everything else

Muse - Dead Star (you singing to me)

You used to be everything to me
And now you're tired of fighting
Tired of fighting,
fighting yourself

Placebo - Pure Morning (you to me, at the Days Inn [of course])

A friend in needs a friend indeed,
A friend with weed is better,
A friend with breasts and all the rest,
A friend who's dressed in leather.

Frankmusik - Your Boy (me to you, strangely enough considering the title)

So, sorry, I'm trying to change the past
Can you give me just one more minute?
How I've lost my time
But I always seem to put you in it

The Wallflowers - Nearly Beloved (me to you)

I walked the orchard with you
Your hand in mine
In the evergreens drinking wine
I saw the snow fall in black and white
From the auburn sky
Last night I lived more than one thousand lives
Not one of them survived

...

If we could do better, I know that we would
Maybe admit it now, we're not that good.
We keep the needle between zero and one
You play your fiddle, baby, I'll play dumb

Death Cab for Cutie - Meet Me On the Equinox (me to you)

Meet me on your best behavior
Meet me at your worst
For there will be no stone unturned
Or bubble left to burst

(everything, everything ends.)

Rasputina - Wish You Were Here (Pink Floyd cover, of course—us both, maybe)

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

(how i wish, how i wish you were here.)

VAST - Pretty When You Cry (you to me, definitely)

you're made of my rib, or baby, you're made of my sin
and i can't tell where your lust ends and where your love begins (begins)

i didn't want to hurt you, baby
i didn't want to hurt you
i didn't want to hurt you,
but you're pretty when you cry

(how can you do this to me now?)

Audioslave - Like A Stone (me to you)

in your house i long to be
room by room patiently
i'll wait for you there
like a stone i'll wait for you there
alone

and on i read
until the day was gone
and i sat in regret
of all the things i've done
for all that i've blessed
and all that i've wronged
in dreams until my death
i will wander on

Uh Huh Her - Explode (me to you)

I wanna touch you, slowly
I'm a lonely girl
Come on
You want to
So won't you pay if you wanna go down

I'd love to hurt you
Easy
I've got you, inside me
What do you care if you want to
You should pay if you wanna go

U2 - I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For (Live Version) (who even knows anymore—both of us, probably)

your verse:

I have run, I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you.

But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.

my verse:

You broke the bonds
And you loosed the chains
Carried the cross of my shame
Oh my shame, you know I believe it.

But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.

Both of us:

only to be with you (just to be with you)

The Ark - Absolutely No Decorum (me in a good mood singing to you, or you trying to cheer me up, or us both going out for a good time)

And I know that the times are rough, but I won't play dead while I'm alive
For I long for the shock and the awe of speaking plainly from my mind
But I know there's a place downtown where they say there's a bug-free zone
So let's go, let's head out tonight
And let the words in our minds spill out

'Cause right now under this fevering moon I wanna take you for a ride
To the reasons you need, be it hunger or greed, it's all
And a little bit more as we come alive again

Tell me a joke and make me smile
Play me the part, be the star for a while
And absolutely no decorum whatsoever, baby

James Morrison - You Make It Real (me to you, absolutely)

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand,
You've got to be the only one who knows just who I am.

Azure Ray - Nothing Like a Song (me to you)

it's an unfamiliar song
you said you'd like to sing along
but you couldn't change the key
i can't sing it doesn't suit me

and when i wake up freezing now half believing
it was this i feared
because it's not just the words that you whisper in my ear

and will you answer me i already know
i asked you an answer i already know
and can you come back home you already know
you don't ask cause you already know

and will you come back home

Florence + the Machine - Cosmic Love (you to me, strangely enough)

I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too

So I stayed in the darkness with you.

We Are Scientists - Ghouls (me to you, no doubt)

Can't help but feel attacked, what's that supposed to mean
And no I won't relax or act like it's no big deal
This happens all the time; it's kind of our routine
But we all recognize that I'm the problem here.

(We all recognize that I'm the problem here.)

The Knife - Got 2 Let U (both of us, singing the girl/boy parts as in the song)

It is like magic to me
Making mistakes and be forgiven
easily (easily).

[...]

She does it all the time
Making mistakes and then I
ease her mind.

Apartment - Crazy (me, of course)

Crazy
I'm crazy for feelin' so lonely
I'm crazy
Crazy for feelin' so blue

The Kills - No Wow (MSTRKRFT Remix) (me to you)

You're gonna have to step over my dead body, before you walk out that door.
You charmed me with your magic, landed looking tragic.
"Forever" is the feather you ain't got no more.

U2 - Love Rescue Me (probably me to you)

I said love
Climb up the mountains, said love
I said love, oh my love
On the hill of the son
I'm on the eve of a storm
And my word you must believe in
Oh, I said love, rescue me

Cassius - I <3 U So (you to me, beyond a doubt)

(oh, i love you so—)
don't know why i love you,
i never know.

Meat Loaf - Good Girls Go To Heaven (Bad Girls Go Everywhere) (you to me)

And no one said it had to be real
But it's gotta be something you can reach out and feel
now,
It ain't right
It ain't fair
Castles fall in the sand
And we fade in the air
And the good girls go to Heaven, but the bad girls go everywhere
Ooh now good girls go to Heaven, but the bad girls go everywhere

and FINALLY,
Machines of Loving Grace - Butterfly Wings (come on, baby, did you really think you were getting an entire playlist of songs about us and NOT have this one on it? anyway: both of us, of course)

Don't place faith in human beings
human beings are unreliable things
don't place faith in human beings
human beings or butterfly wings.

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Again, download all 25 songs here.

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(7:07:38 PM) VE: I've heard of machines of loving grace before but never heard them. This is pretty good. Sounds a bit like The Dandy Warhols
(7:07:51 PM) Erika: way before them.
(7:07:56 PM) Erika: but yeah.
(7:08:03 PM) Erika: it's weird, but that's chance's and my first 'song'.
(7:08:07 PM) Erika: like 'our song', lol.
(7:08:20 PM) Erika: #1 reason why he and i can't ever get married: there's no way in hell that's appropriate for a first dance.
(7:08:43 PM) Erika: i mean, there are a shitload of other reasons too, obviously, but that's the first one on the non-serious list.

and then I copied & pasted that to chance, and kept talking about it:

(7:10:33 PM) Erika: and then i was like, 'wait, ARE there any appropriate songs on my list?'
(7:10:38 PM) Erika: and so i was double-checking, and no, there are not.
(7:11:23 PM) Erika: the closest the list comes is 'you make it real' by james morrison, but that's not us, that's just me.
(7:13:38 PM) chance: ha ha ha ha...that kinds of sums up our whole relationship, in a way.
(7:14:01 PM) Erika: completely inappropriate?
(7:14:18 PM) Erika: but necessary?
(7:15:47 PM) chance: yeah, like that.