forget about the big picture

[erika]

What do I say after this?

Don't hate yourself too much in the morning.

Sleep well.

It seems ridiculous to keep secrets after this, tonight, when the secret is just that I want you. You'd think that would have been easy enough to say, after this. But on my part, it's more than wanting you like you wanted me tonight. Like you said, easily, i'm the worst and I said i think you'd enjoy pretending you were.

I hate pretending, but there's nothing else I can do. The truth is hard and bitter on my black tongue, and I got to the phone just after your call went to voicemail. Probably best we don't actually speak, anyway. Online, things are easier to erase, ignore. Pretend.

I'll send you this song for all the things I can't say.

find a new romance
another true romance
give yourself another chance
forgive your brothers & sisters
find some time for tea & wine & valentines
forget about the big picture

(pull yourself out the water, boy
god knows no one else will)

(Never turn your back on love;
never never never let it in)