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erikaI don't know if I've really mentioned it here yet but the horrific IUD insertion back in December has had some pretty far reaching effects.
It (probably combined with the stuff that happened with Josh in January) triggered my PTSD hardcore. Yes, I was sexually assaulted, but I was 19 and I felt like it was behind me. It didn't trigger me when people wanted to talk to me about their experiences. I used to volunteer as an advocate for a rape survivor's network, for christ's sake. I went in person to the hospital after someone had unfortunately been sexually assaulted in order to help them make the right decisions for them, and I thought I was trigger-free, at least regarding sexual assault.
HA.
I'm having nightmares, I'm hypervigilant, blah blah. The experience was an assault on my bodily integrity and I really don't ever want to meet a new doctor again.
(And the response to my complaint was something else entirely. I'm trying to figure out if I want to lawyer up or just make a more stringent complaint. Probably door #2 unless they keep bullshitting me. There's one outright lie in that letter and since I've had two independent verifications of that, of course I think that there's probably more.)
Unfortunately, I have an appointment with a ENT-specialist to figure out if I have sinus problems.panda continues to earn her rock star status by accompanying me, which I ... don't think I can express how very grateful for that I am.
However, right now I don't want to go to sleep, because it's like the reverse of that old parental advice to excited kids on Xmas eve. ("You need to go to bed or Santa can't come!")
That means if I don't sleep, obviously the appointment will never happen. Right?
It (probably combined with the stuff that happened with Josh in January) triggered my PTSD hardcore. Yes, I was sexually assaulted, but I was 19 and I felt like it was behind me. It didn't trigger me when people wanted to talk to me about their experiences. I used to volunteer as an advocate for a rape survivor's network, for christ's sake. I went in person to the hospital after someone had unfortunately been sexually assaulted in order to help them make the right decisions for them, and I thought I was trigger-free, at least regarding sexual assault.
HA.
I'm having nightmares, I'm hypervigilant, blah blah. The experience was an assault on my bodily integrity and I really don't ever want to meet a new doctor again.
(And the response to my complaint was something else entirely. I'm trying to figure out if I want to lawyer up or just make a more stringent complaint. Probably door #2 unless they keep bullshitting me. There's one outright lie in that letter and since I've had two independent verifications of that, of course I think that there's probably more.)
Unfortunately, I have an appointment with a ENT-specialist to figure out if I have sinus problems.
panda continues to earn her rock star status by accompanying me, which I ... don't think I can express how very grateful for that I am.However, right now I don't want to go to sleep, because it's like the reverse of that old parental advice to excited kids on Xmas eve. ("You need to go to bed or Santa can't come!")
That means if I don't sleep, obviously the appointment will never happen. Right?
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on Friday, March 29th, 2013 08:44 pm (UTC)I'm also sorry you have to deal with all the rest of this, too. Fuck doctors, seriously.
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on Saturday, March 30th, 2013 03:54 pm (UTC)no subject
on Monday, April 1st, 2013 01:34 am (UTC)I've had things trigger me that were unexpected, too. Sometimes it's not the obvious thing. It doesn't mean that you haven't dealt well or that what happened isn't adequately behind you; it just means that sometimes unusual things happen to be triggers, and that doctor was a shithead.