together we can take the world apart, my love
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erikaI'm pretty good, I guess. Shit's still hard, and I'm still crazy.
Turned 35 last month. With the money everybody gave me I bought a wetsuit. It arrived on Tuesday and I went for a tiny swim in ridiculous surf because I could. It was glorious.
Celebrating Chanukah with the girlfriend's family tomorrow. It's nice to have family. Confusing to allow them to like me. I'm not used to having family who like me, I suspect I'm difficult. I still don't see what I could be good at, what I could contribute, that what I do is enough. It probably isn't, right? Just legally speaking, it's not.
I say that as I just resubmitted paperwork reaffirming my disability shit with Social Security.
I mean, I say that too like the collapse of USA's society isn't imminent for a lot of reasons, including fascism resurgence, and also because capitalism is devoted to squandering as much of our communal resources as possible on the top .01% of humans. I feel sorry for Joe Biden trying to fix this shit. Course, I did vote for him. Ms. Harris was my senator, now she'll be my VP, and that's exciting and cool. Still bummed about the judge with no fucking qualifications who replaced RBG.
Teyla's well, 3 months after her last cancer surgery, although I keep postponing calling the cancer center for dogs where she'll probably start radiation therapy. I keep postponing having my car repaired. I keep postponing all this important stuff.
The psychological assessment said I was self-defeating, hated authority, unwilling to control my emotions. Fuck 'em. Not sure how much attention I should pay to that old crap, considering I paid $200 AFTER insurance to be subjected to a Rorschach blot test——
Turned 35 last month. With the money everybody gave me I bought a wetsuit. It arrived on Tuesday and I went for a tiny swim in ridiculous surf because I could. It was glorious.
Celebrating Chanukah with the girlfriend's family tomorrow. It's nice to have family. Confusing to allow them to like me. I'm not used to having family who like me, I suspect I'm difficult. I still don't see what I could be good at, what I could contribute, that what I do is enough. It probably isn't, right? Just legally speaking, it's not.
I say that as I just resubmitted paperwork reaffirming my disability shit with Social Security.
I mean, I say that too like the collapse of USA's society isn't imminent for a lot of reasons, including fascism resurgence, and also because capitalism is devoted to squandering as much of our communal resources as possible on the top .01% of humans. I feel sorry for Joe Biden trying to fix this shit. Course, I did vote for him. Ms. Harris was my senator, now she'll be my VP, and that's exciting and cool. Still bummed about the judge with no fucking qualifications who replaced RBG.
Teyla's well, 3 months after her last cancer surgery, although I keep postponing calling the cancer center for dogs where she'll probably start radiation therapy. I keep postponing having my car repaired. I keep postponing all this important stuff.
The psychological assessment said I was self-defeating, hated authority, unwilling to control my emotions. Fuck 'em. Not sure how much attention I should pay to that old crap, considering I paid $200 AFTER insurance to be subjected to a Rorschach blot test——
Literally everyone's first comment is
Isn't that completely deprecated
Yes, yes it is
Isn't that completely deprecated
Yes, yes it is
